One day I was talking to a friend when suddenly suicide thoughts came to my mind. I asked her if she knew anyone who was feeling suicidal. She dropped her head, and pointed to herself. "Yeah, me," she said. "I can't take it anymore. I don't want to live another day." I treated her to ice cream and we had a long talk. I shared with her how I struggle with depression and could relate to suicide wishes.
It is hard for most people to imagine that a person could be so desperate to even or even consider committing an act of suicide. Most people are uncomfortable with the subject and prefer not to think or deal with it. Some of us are not so happy not to deal with it. I know how it comforting to talk to someone else, the actions are our struggles. When I was a research paper in graduate school to suicide, I cried when I read the stories, some unhappy went to such drastic measures, and desperate. Then I nodded my head and give youThank you and say "there but for the grace of God go I."
When I saw my therapist and after a good friend, Elizabeth, in 1990 I was with a lot of thoughts of suicide. She encouraged me to talk about it. There was silence, silence with Elizabeth. He was rude to the point of embarrassment at times. "Come on, Michael, talk about your desire to commit suicide," he said, looking at me so you do not keep things inside edge. "Let me tell you mine. I wanted the dog drunk, boring stuffSock in the exhaust of my car and start the engine and let carbon monoxide are in "So it was that I would. You know what kept me from it? I had no garage. I was afraid I might take unconscious in just enough to go to around for a while ', fry the brain cells, then filed a few vegetables in a psychiatric ward crazy. Since this is not a garage, the one who saved my life. Well, not really, "he continued," on a deeper level, he would not die, I just wanted to go to the evil and pain away and the terrible Goddeep, dark recesses, you think of going to eat you alive and spit remain in the abyss. "
I sat mesmerized, listening to his story. I've never had anyone, let alone depression, more is known, depressed, like me. "Most people really do not want to end their lives," Elizabeth continued, "they just want relief from pain and injury. Some see no other way except drinking, gluttony, sleeping 14 hours a day, was that one or the sex or gamblingShop-a-holic, not a few of them to do. I definitely paid my homage to the goddess porcelain. I would advise to customers throughout the day. Many therapists are important issues and problems on the home front. Hell, I was a therapist, so I was able to acquire some tools to help myself.
Elizabeth would then have a little 'closer and speaking softly, "You know Michael, there are a lot of power into anger and depression. They are great teachers. You must learn to deal with them and talk tothem. Find out what they are, what makes them click and control, and what they want from you. I live to hear the parties themselves to hate life and do not want is a giant step toward healing. Most people try to push the other way, and push away the negative feelings. It never works. Skeletons in the closet does not belong. If left alone and unattended, they find a way to make noise and shake and tremble until you get your attention. And the attention they get in both casesanother. Take from someone who was there. I know what I mean. "
I wanted to say after a while 'of Elizabeth I, it was my turn to speak and listen to them and prod me along. If it was really exciting and hard, they helped me through. Elizabeth I moved in my life because I really do not want to commit suicide. If you want to live you can always find a reason, as if we really want our help they can win. Another time, during another dark time, if I wantedThe end of everything, I called my friend Janet. At one point I said: "I can not die, I never get through all the" Star Wars "films or finished editing the book How to develop your intuition, which I wrote." If you see a movie, editing a book, visiting a relative or even a hermit or a drunk for a while ', what it takes to overcome these difficult times, then I say "May the Force be with us."
I did it the hard way, that is depression and despair learned demanding, difficult, but wonderfulTeachers, ergo the reason for activating them. Depression is a possibility that our soul is anxious to reach out and help us. We're depressed, when our lives are out of whack and we do not 'do' what we really do. We have lost our way and lost our way.
Our soul and our guide can help get us back on track, but too often closed the door, not to listen to our soul and our guides. Depression is the result of such a block off. We can avoid our workKarma and always with our lives. We are able to unhealthy dysfunctional relationship that will serve to keep us. We often have to stand and fight, we know that our heart and soul wants for us. But as they say, is what resists the man or woman Ole depression is indicated, if ever deny or neglect to fulfill our destiny and work to fulfill and realize our hopes and dreams. Depression and despair are stretched energies that need to mix and move the blocks. Theircontain raw reservoirs of power which can move us forward in a positive direction They can also turn on and destroy us if we do not find out what they have to say and teach us. They intensity if we refuse to make necessary adjustments in our beliefs and thinking to bring about needed changes in our lives.
I have learned that our struggles do not always originate from this current lifetime we are living. I have had more than one psychic tell me that my last lifetime was as a struggling Model and Impressionist painters in Paris, France. What I found most interesting is when you listen to this, some things that are relevant to confirm me in this life "reading clairvoyant. I've never understood the meaning of this strange behavior until the psyche of an enigma to me. The non-clairvoyant I knew nothing and I gave them no information of any kind
I also took a tremendous amount of anger in men much of this life. I know some of them come from myFather was so violent. But I had to learn that my struggle with men does not come into this life. That made me even more determined to root of my anger with men in this life to get, so it can heal and move forward. I learned in my metaphysical studies, which is unresolved grief, pain and karma takes us back in any case in which the work karma in a future life.
The mystery was solved a few years later, when I went to a well-known astrologer and psychic in CampChesterfield Spiritualist Camp in Indianapolis, Indiana. I gave birth to my information over the phone and have the astrological calculations for my chart and my karmic card. One of his specialties was the astrological karma. Needless to say I was very curious and enthusiastic about reading. One of the first things they asked me was if I spoke French. I told her that I speak not only French, but I was a teacher of French. She smiled and continued.
"I had the 'Feeling that you could speak French. I am a very sensitive man who has very fertile imagination and creative spirit and a good as well. The first was the life that you showed a woman's life as a model and Impressionist painters in Paris, France. Actually, that was your previous life. "
"No wonder I had to draw in that way, and learned French so quickly."
"It is true, and since they are very much in touch with your subconscious mind, you should still be aArtist at heart. Paint or write? "
"I like to write. I have many poems and stories written some, but I never got very far."
"Now you are going on. They are determined to write books, Michael. I see books spiritual, metaphysical and self-help that will help a lot of people. I see that with writing several novels as well."
"I have a lot of ideas for stories that just put in my head. I must admit that I was not very disciplined. As a full-time studentUniversity takes a lot of me and I'm also visiting a spiritual center, where I learn psychic development and I have a lot of other classes, attend seminars and so on. "
"It 'all right, but you are bound to be a writer, Michael. Let me tell you why. Your life was not the last slice of cake or a day at the park, as they say. You have talent and you desperately loved to paint but have not been respected by the Impressionist painters of the time. This was a time,While most of the men were more chauvinistic. He had a very hard going. I almost died of hunger, and almost froze to death at one point. There was a man who loved you very much. He wanted to marry, but you were not interested in marriage. They created some karma met with him and he might have in this life. "
He was very worried and concerned when France has become increasingly unstable, and wanted to leave with him and safety. She said there was nothing to annoy or makeover, but the truth was that he did not want the lavish court life, you get used to it, had to leave. He died at the guillotine, and died of a broken heart. What a sad life! "
"This is very interesting because I can not bear to have something close to my neck and I do not like ties."
He elaborated, "And you knew him here," he said, pointing to their natal astrology, karmic. "It 'been a long life in India. They were certainly a monaco in a monastery, while your motherand a sister died of hunger from a famine. He came to you and asked them for food, but all I could talk about what you had your high meditations and spiritual life. Their doctrine is that the physical and mental balance and is a lesson for this life. "
"And 'interesting to say. I remember the first time that Chris came to visit in my apartment, I wondered what I had to eat. He always wanted me to feed him, and he just expected more. I remember someI have no time to raise him. "
He said: "Perhaps you are," the psychic. "Now back to your life as a French painter. Wound am very disappointed, and he hated the painting and is more or less human. You make a bond with your art in this life and what sacrifices he needs to succeed."
"I do not have that, so I have to do something now. And 'that's what you say."
"Yes, and will not be easy. But it is one of the main lessons karmic soulfor this life. Ascendant in your karma karmic chart shows what you need to learn in this life. Yours is in Capricorn, and you have to learn responsibility in all spheres of life. Their tendency is low, if mentally, emotionally or physically, when he came to shove. You can not do in this life. "
"I can understand."
The psychological discussed some lives, and what I have learned or not learned, and then ends the session. I had the latest, threeAnother clairvoyant (from different parts of the country) tell me that was killed at the guillotine during the French Revolution.
I had to learn a martial artist has been very useful for me, but the psychological sure hit the nail on the head when it was not easy to say my relationship with the art in this life. We know that we can not totally reminds us of the agreement, a karmic thing we should do and achieve, but does not make it less easy. I started and stopped so many times my writingOver the years I lost track. I would like to write a novel or start a project and you can immerse yourself in all your heart and write for hours or even days at a time. Then I would be besieged with melancholy and sadness, and I would just quit. How out of sight, out of mind, it was as if I had not written anything yet. I usually could not remember most of what I had written, nor have to worry about when I was in the pit of depression.
Currently, at the age of 52 I'm finally making progress with my writing, provided that the psychicmore than 20 years ago that I would do. The saying goes, better late than never. I'm sure there is some truth in such a way that I am now half that advises people. In my mental work are constantly dealing with similar advice and past life readings have become an important part of my job. However, not taking much of the emotional pain that we humans seem to be like us through. Why could not I have accepted the past life reading from the psychic and just keep my writingand my life? It is not easy for many of us. Old injuries, wounds and fears usually do not die or disappear overnight. At least I discovered that my case and many of my clients. Healing can be a lifelong process. I am grateful for the progress and healing, I have experienced, but not totally healed. I will never be.
I'm still prone to depression and melancholy, sometimes, even if I use it to better than I used to be much more. I have a betterUnderstanding of depression than before and that helps me to cope and to help my clients struggle with him. Sometimes depression can be chronic (as in me many times over the years), to the point that we feel or are immobilized, and this can lead to thoughts of suicide or fantasies. This is our soul trying to be mean or cruel to us. It will help us and shows us what we're doing here on this earth, and believe me, we are all on earth for reasons that have beenexpected, even before we were born.
I read that for every soul, incarnated and born, that there is at least (sometimes more) to wait more than ten souls waiting to be born. There are more souls born to want to work karma, since the points to them being born. We usually have no memory of which depicted pre-scheduled meetings and meetings with our consultants, where we are, what we want to achieve in a particular embodiment. But that does not meanthat our soul and our leaders do not have this knowledge. Sometimes a regressionist regression with a qualified hypnotherapist and past life can offer help. The subconscious mind is usually free, a vision of what the person chosen to deliver the work in its current incarnation. You can also take a look, it is necessary to explain some phobias, challenges, fears, attractions, talents and abilities, people. Our subconscious mind and knowing a lot more awarenessNo specific person at a time. It sometimes takes quite depression, despair and failure to surrender to God leads us and reach a higher power, angels and guides. If this happens we are on the road to recovery and healing. For this reason, depression and despair are their purpose.
When it comes to soul, the doors begin to open miracles. Sometimes we have to leave out what I call "crying a great soul," so that God and our angels really listen. I let out athe soul cries out for about a week before I met Elizabeth. I was so desperate that I told God I was even willing to skip the Golden Gate Bridge, if only he would show me a sign that doing the right thing was to escape all my pain. I added that I did not vote for defeat by paranoia, self or feel evil spirits. These and all other negative voices inside me would shut up. These would come from the same boss. I asked God for someone to help me. I justcould not prevent the very heavy burden alone. Do not trust anyone. I felt alone. Sucked the life at the bottom.
There were many nights during this time that things were now old voices in my head like a whisper: "Come on, just at the end of all societies. You leave this world. It 'nice to the other side. The world will not just put a man to lose. "I would be very depressed and vulnerable, but also a strong will. A part of me I do not really want me in itand I knew that suicide was not a solution. Also during this time have pulled many of us consider our life ends. The pain is so unbearable at times, we see no other way. Now I tell others let out a cry of the soul so that the roadside assistance.
And 'some of my metaphysical and spiritual beliefs that helped me to survive in these dark times. I have in my studies and explorations, the soul continues to evolve its way to the Source or Creator "God" as some refer to the divine learned.We are happy to choose to undergo many experiences as part of our growth and evolution. We have lives that there are farmers from the darkness and into other lives, we are servants of the light. We are often exemplary qualities of darkness and light, or positive and negative characteristics and qualities. I learned that the law of cause and effect, or karma, one of universal law is always working and each of you face to face and work accumulated karmic debts, weemerged with different souls that we encounter. If the karmic debts are paid, continue to evolve and HELLLIGKEIT our soul and we get closer to our source. Most people who spend a lot of life on Earth as part of the preparation of their karma, which can be positive or negative.
Some souls have lives on other planets in other solar systems and worlds, universes and dimensions. Learn these things gave me a sense of personal responsibility. I could not play "poor me victim" as I didFor years in my youth. This knowledge does not "work" or paying the karma is not easy, but it helped me to learn that there are no victims. We can do it! Yes, I know that it is difficult to digest, but do not come at some point every soul on this knowledge. My past-life regression and readings gave me to understand my past life, where I had been abusing free will, and used my personal magnetism and power to manipulate and get what I wanted from others. In this life I hadAddressing a series of powerful people manipulated with me. I learned that it is sure to die. There is no where, as Sartre says, come into play "No Exit". Or how would the famous seer Edgar Cayce, "it always comes back to herself meeting him. Every karmic debt must be paid. There are exceptions, which are not paid in a life must be paid in another. Learn how We also pay, no matter how much work, time and energy is involved.
I knew that I did not wantreturn to a future life and work of the errors that I have in this lifetime to correct. Emotional stress has been difficult and hard my thoughts and I put the call on my guides and the universe for help. About a week after my soul cries Elizabeth entered the jewelry store where I worked. We started talking, because there were no other customers at this time. At one point she looked at me and said, "Can I be honest with you"
"Sure," I said, "delighted" to put itme. "
"We laugh a lot and play the clown, Michael, but I think a lot are depressed. I have observed many times and can say a lot about people watching them."
When he went on, the guard and confessed that he was right. I was good at playing the clown, and few people knew the real me. I do not even know the real me. Although I laughed and joked a lot, I was really very lonely and unhappy. He then went on to say that they are very like me. We talkedhour. A few days later he called and invited me to lunch. Then we talked on the phone and started along with other things. Soon after we began "our cemetery," as I call them sessions. We would like to walk in the Spring Forest Cemetery / Park and have our meetings. I told her about my soul cry out to God the week before I met her. He said he was not in the shop a couple of weeks because he always wrapped a lot of money to spend on gifts for friends. This was one of theirDependencies, he admitted.
Your inner voice told her to go to the store that day when we met. I was still as magic was all surprised. He may take it if you really give up, then our soul and help us we need. Too often we let our fears and doubts to keep the magic happen. I could not about to pay to see a therapist, how many people are missing. But part of my nature has always been confident that the child believes in magic and wasMiracle. I was really ready to get back to work again for me, and I was open to anyone's help. My guide and I think he knew that I was sent to Elizabeth. She did not ever asked me a single session because they said I was a good friend and adviser, she.
Even though she left after a few years ago, and I think that often gets lost sometimes, I know who have been long as they remain in Cincinnati. He said that my friendship, encouragement andSupport helped his unhappy end 26 years of marriage. I like to think I did help her. Now she's gone, but the people who enter and leave our lives all the time. We enjoy, appreciate and enjoy, while they are with us and what we can learn from the relationship and bless them when they go on.
Elizabeth was a great gift in my life, I heard a prize for the inner work I had done. The inner work is important and there are many things we do for ourselves, but there is also a timeWe need help from others. I am absolutely convinced that we have incentives, if we, if you do not place restrictions and limitations, which wants to be our mentors and helpers. Help can come in any shape or form. We feel in our guts, if someone is good for us or if they are not. Elizabeth I remember one day that sucked therapy. She laughed and said that he agreed, but the unhappiness and misery sucked. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Therapyworks when we work with her. This takes time, effort and patience than to say beaucoup de France.
The more inner work on himself, but I had to reach out to others. I made friends with a couple of other psychologists, their approaches were very different from those of Elizabeth. But, hey, variety is the spice of life. I learned a lot from them. I also met some social workers who have helped me. I've always tended to attract people like that. I think it's because I have so muchRespect for people in the helping professions. My dream at the age of 14 years by a psychiatrist and my mother lay. Then I changed my mind and decided to create a social worker to be a minister. I finally figured out that we can not solve, no one is big enough to solve our problem, and I ended up with more French. But my love for psychology will always be there, and those books that I have collected so long ago some of my best friends. I read and a lot of help, if I do. Uschange and grow every day. There is always something else to get out of a book, a new, to gain a broader perspective and more education, another idea to us in some way not to light first.
It took a while 'for me to accept that anger, despair and depression are our teachers and many gifts, but as I worked more with Elizabeth, began to make more sense. "The anger and pain felt longer, the more room there is for the love and joy," he had to endure. "Justreach the pain and anger before getting the love. It has to go before you go! "And the anger and rage can choose from more than this life which now, as I learned when we visit." She often laughed and said, "'the elevator going up or down today"
When I was sensitive to my wounded inner child, and began my fears, insecurities and abuse feel with my hopes and dreams and things that he loved life, I noticed that my self-confidenceCentrality decreases more and more. "The selfish are actually" insecure children in adult bodies, said Elizabeth one day. "They are so emotionally wounded and injured, that the only way they think they can survive and around the world to be in first place at the expense of others 'feelings', and need. If you hurt others, but also getting hurt . And this is a real pity and shame. "
I encourage all those who live miserably unhappy start to life, and explore the metaphysicalspiritual realms. The survey can not work out your karma, but you may know, the power is. That alone makes the job performance of karma, and somewhat less difficult to understand. At this point for our learning, we are here to solve the victiom or "poor me" mode of thought and life, and begin to take personal responsibility for our lives and our past lives. This will contribute to positive change and lead us to a happier more fulfilling life.
